i have so much to say but no interest in actually saying it.. boooooo. tired of the bullshit though, i tell ya that much

i think the future is doomed forreal. craziness thats happening in this world today just gets worse and worse. not to mention too many parents arent raising their kids right and they letting the entertainment industry be role models to these lil niglets. the entertainment industry is just that, entertainment. but why people keep looking up to these fools and trying to be like that by far blows my mind. education people. get ya education. i hate to sound like an old man but knowledge really is power on sooooo many levels. im 25 and im still learning so much, shit ive learned this year alone i feel like i never knew shit be4.. tru story.

in any case.. its friday.. im happy... work is good :) i got a lil bonus and award yesterday so you know im cheesing. plus i get to see my boo for 11 days *muah*

i keep getting these stupid ass headaches. i think its from clinching down on my teeth at nite. boooooo. today is just like any other day.. at work.. wishing it was 5pm. nothing new lately. same ol shit lol ready for this year to be ova! i have a strong desire to be back in school, but no dinero... whos going to sponsor me???

theres something about friday that no matter how shitty your week was, you just feel so fucking good on friday. sheesh. nothing can really bring down my high today.. well i hope not. im not sleepy, i got paid, time is going by fast, and i get to sleeep this weekend. yayyyyyyy

nothing else to say but enjoy your weekend.. and check my 9 yr old nephew's 55 yr old man halloween costume below lol


is that you cleotus??

last nite i turned up the notch and did 3 miles. whooo hooooo.. it was a lil struggle but my 2 miles was a struggle when i first started and now piece of cake.. so yea... kinda sleepy. got free parkin today bc the meter was broke so im psyched. doin homework, hope no one catches me. 2 days be4 da weekend owwwwwwwwwwwwww

life is really hard right now.
but ima just pray it out

i decided to start drivin to work afta the whole metro card thing and its just easier. get to wake up later. get to go straight home. EXCEPT, that traffic is some fcukn bullshit. damn it took me an hour to get to work today. i live 10 miles from work! why cant i just have wings??? lord give me wings!

poof bam pow!

lol its monday and i hate mondays but im trying to be happy just so that time will go by quicker. does time even go by quicker if youre happy opposed to being sad? prolly not... this past week wasnt too bad. i was a little down thurs & fri bc i lost my metro card, setting me back a lil financially and you can imagine that i was PISSED but i been trying to be more positive about the negative things that happen to me and was just thankful that i was able to still cover transportation and keep it moving like nothing happened. sis and friend came to visit this weekend and it was fun. we went out fri nite and got bent, totally free nite so that was a plus. except saturday my stomach was wrecked something serious. which is why i keep telling myself no alchol for me. just wine man. but damn when shit aint goin ur way, u wont hesitate to drink till u cant remember shit the next day. anywho, saturday we spent the whole day laying down watching tv and eating lol. SO FAT. i wish i could throw it all up since i kindve slashed my diet. but whatever. my project manager is big on workin out and she told me i need to step it up to 3 miles a day. but im so afraid, i dunno why. 3 miles seems like i will be running forever. i normally do 2. one day i attempted 2.5 and felt like death. i guess i can only get better results by pushing tho right?

random but im at the point in my life where i need to stay busy to feel like life is worth living, shame, i know lol. but i decided to take this income tax class for 6 weeks where they basically teach you how to do income taxes, duh.. then you work from jan to april doin pplz taxes. im kinda excited to be doin something new and hopefully this will get me back in the groove of reading and learning. and being used to being n a class setting again bc lord knows ima need that if i ever plan on returning to school. soooo.. yea.. thats the movement right now.

kf shall be here on dec. 16th. boom! pow! bam! lol

TGIF

the devil is trying to break me down in every way possible. but i refuse to fall. despite the massive amount of stress ive experienced in the last 8 months, i still continue to smile with every situation. there are times when i just want to hurt people, break things, etc. but i refuse to let this shit get to me. i know this shit will get better. and im determined to not let all the nonsense turn me into a hateful person. but i need the good shit to happen now. like right now.

sometimes family members can A. cause you to have a heartattack or B. make your hair fall out from stress. there is no reason why adults cant act like adults. why do i have to be the adult in every situation? it is annoying. i wish people would stop being selfish and get their shit together. these niggas a lot of times only care about themselves and that shit is going to catch up to them in the long run. i cannot take care of EVERYTHING. i am only one person. and frankly its about time you stand on your own 2 feet and act your fuckin age. this is pissing me the fuck off. its always family who pulls you back when you are just trying to move forward. grow the fuck up

i need to go see my boo one last time in TX but i cant find the nickels or dimes to buy a ticket any time soon... tic toc.. maybe i can strip for one weekend. the weekend was good, relaxing. toni came down sat nite and we went clubbn. laughed my ass off the entire nite bc i swear ppl b puttin n so much work n the club, its hilarious. not only that, there is always that group of dudes who swear out they pdiddy & their entourage. too funny bc there asses are all prolly gay cuz u never see them once look at a girl or try to talk to one.

its getting cold and the colder it gets the more i wanna just lay on my couch. that cant be good. sposed to have company this weekend and next weekend then be outta town the following.. thats not goin to be good for my diet. people and places outside of my normal habitat throw me off. i wish i cud throw up the bad food sometimes lol.

i jus realized today a lot of people think that i hate men. i dont. i love men. people get it twisted. when im talkn bout the grimey shit men do, thats merely to point out the fact that men are stupid no matter how old they r. but thats not to say i dont like men, wat kinda woman wud i be if i didnt like men? lol when ppl make statements like that all i can do is laugh. i started some big hoopla on FB today by simply stating i was so over working and wanted to just marry a rich man. thats all. its a joke. obviously my ass aint gone stop workin or jus marry a man bc he rich. common sense right? NO. it turned into this whole debate on why black successful men dont marry black women bc we have an attitude, loud, and complain. LOL WOAH WOAH WOAH. b easy. its crazy how everything is so serious on FB. be easy. this shit is for entertainment purposes only. no need to have a cow. i ended up deletn the shit that had 112 comments bc ppl was msgn me and textin me like omg why are u friends with them, what is rong wit them blah blah. delete. i cant.. i just cant.

aside from that i have a rack of people blocked from seeing my statuses mainly bc 1 i can be very vulgar and not everybody needs to see that, 2 some people are extremely nosy and dont need to see my shit, and 3 some people i work with or worked with and i dont think they need to see that side of me bc they are not really my 'friend' so when people write on my WALL soemhting about my status, its like they kinda blowin up my spot. so i wish they wud stop lol. i be so ready to delete FB. if it wasnt for the friends i can only get in contact wit thru fb and the fact that it has good picture storage and sharing, id peace the f out. oh and farmville of course. oh well i dont feel like talkng anymore..