almost

im sorta kinda finally moved in. still so much stuff to do but for the most part, 98% of my stuff is in and good. this has been the most stressful moveout process ever mainly because of lack of planning and procastination but not on my part. i always pride myself in the way i always plan ahead of time and stay organized, but too bad not everyone is like that & it can have an ill effect on the situation. needless to say i am happy it is over because i was so close to being pushed over the edge. anyways, not important anymore. i am wishing and hoping that these next couple of months prove to be good ones. from all the lifting and up & down steps and being broke with no food, i have lost 5 lbs in 2 weex. how ridiculous is that? lol anyways i need money people. & suggestions of getting it. anyways, back to work

tuck in yuh belly

before i get into my weekend... what is up with that grown ass woman stealing that young girls baby, then killing the girl? i just cant believe that stuff like that happens. it is soo soo soooo sooo sad. i see movies like that on lifetime but i never heard an actual real story on the news. that is such a terrible crime & i truly believe any woman who has the balls to cut out a pregnant womans baby & steal it, needs to rott n hell because you have serious sick issues.

anyways, the dark knight was so on point, definitely go see that. its pretty long so make sure you take a nap before. lol. the joker played by heath ledger (RIP) kept me at the edge of my seat the entire time. i mean no one else could have played that role any better & i truly mean that.

i got a headache & im tired. bf came to visit this week & it was cool, we had fun. still trying to figure out though if we were 'supposed' to get back together though. sometimes it is very difficult to fix things that cant be fixed. a relationship is hardwork; it is like a full time job. & sometimes i dont feel like the salary is high enough. but at the end of the day, i love him & i cant see myself with anyone else. so i will continue to play this by ear.

ive finally mastered the whole diet (exercising & healthy food) situation. that shit is a full time job as well. trying to stay on top of going to the gym & eating the right foods can sometimes make u frustrated because it all boils down to consistency. & at this point in my life, i do too much to be consistent. discipline i guess is something i have mastered recently. anyways i am working my way towards a slimmer body which has been my main goal in life for the past 6 months. i let go of myself a lil and i must say i was pissed the fuk off cuz my clothes stop fitting, & people kept makin comments. naturally i dont care what people say, but it can get annoying when certain people who's opinion does matter to you, keep constantly reminding you. not to mention ive been entirely too broke to afford a whole new wardrobe. okay a shirt here or there, or maybe a pair of jeans every month, but ALL of my clothes were getting tight and i needed to do something quick. so i joined LA fitness back in december when i was talkng to this guy who was all about health & wat not..& i tried the whole salad bullshit and eating pretty much birdseeds, lol not literally but just eating shit that i didnt like, was tasteless, and at the end of the day i was starving. so in the past month i took another approach. many small meals. ive heard people talk about this all the time, "eat small portions, eat 5-6 meals per day, it speeds up ur metabolism and youre never hungry." well who the fuk has time to make 5 to 6 meals a day. then it clicked to me: a meal can simply be a snack. AH HA!

so now i can say i have 3 full time jobs. PHA, boyfriend, and diet. I seriously deserve 6 figures for all the bullshit, true story.

for the record

im moving this month unfortunately, lease is over. a lot of people have been asking and it has nothing to do with me & jens friendship. lol i just wanted to put that out there. for anyone who has not rented before, your lease expires after 1 year, you have the option to either renew or bounce, some places, in order to renew, they sometimes increase your rent. i know some of you are prolly like i know that dummy.. but trust a lot of people dont. anyways, bottom line we couldnt find another 2 bedroom 2 bath for a good deal or suitable location so we split apart. we're still the same fuckin friends we've always been. its funny because people are waiting for me to say or her to say, i hate that bitch im not livin wit her no more. lol but the fact i wont give them what they want, they are confused as hell. anyways me & jen are still the same friends we have always been and nothing can change that. not to mention i have only lived with her for a year, so i dunno y people r acting like we been living together for 5 years or something. but i just wanted to put that out there because ive been gettin so many phone calls & texts, crazy right? like the world is coming to an end because jen & poiette arent rooming together.. hahah.. sad part is, though my new rent is much cheaper than my current rent, im goin to be living n the hood again.. so pray for me that no one breaks n2 my car cuz they are infamous for that shit n west philly. i guess i will start some type of packing procedure next week. i wish someone cud just pack up my shit for me. good thing is i dont have much junk, so it shudnt b to hard packing... its just the actual transporting from one place to another.. & i have to find some men who are willing to do that for me ;-)

people here at work piss me the fuck off. its like everybody forgets their common sense at home every morning. jeezeee wat the fuck!!! couldve sworn we all had college degrees

shutup

a few things. id hate for this blog to turn into a complaint forum & maybe because its that time of the month, everything irritates me.

ok people i have bad sunburn from houston. all this week people have been lookin at me like i have aids. like youve never seen someone have sunburn before. u son of a bitch. stop asking me what happened to my face before i break your face.

facebook albums. i know i have a lot, but what do you want me to do, delete them? no, it makes for great picture storage lol. most of the albums others told me to post so they could see. aint nothing wrong wit that. if you have such an issue with all my albums, why have you looked at every single one of them?

express self checkout at the grocery store. learn how to use the fucking thing before you get on this line. if you are stupid and dont know how to use the shit, go to a regular line where a person can help you. the purpose of self checkout is so you dont have to wait in line for people who want to debate prices & so on you dumb fuck.

just cuz me and kern are back together does not mean we're getting married anytime soon. if one more damn person asks me that, im gonna rip ur fuckin voice box out ur throat. im 24, let me liveeeee sheeeeshhhhh

im tired of people saying 'where you get all this money to go so many places?' going to see my boyfriend is not going to so many places. i dont have that much money. most of the places i go are cheap and i stay with people i know so i am not paying for hotel. 2nd - the whole comment 'you stay going somewhere' i feel like responding, 'you stay sitting at your computer' lol

im done for today

annoyed.

okay so im here in texas for 4th of july vacation because its carnival.. yipeeee cant wait.. we are heading to houston tonite to start the partying. it feels so good to have a day off, i never felt so free lol. im just sittn here doin nothing while k is at work. anyways the reason i titled this shit annoyed is because this past 2 weeks it seems like everyone and everything annoys me. from annoying boys contacting me or harassing me for no reason.. to bitches making smart comments, to my frustration with working at pha.. and so on. everything pisses me off. for one, i dont know why niggas think because they want to have sex with u, that u want to have sex with them too. no partna. it dont work like that. so if i show im not interested by constantly cuirsin u out or telling u to leave me alone, then y cant u get the picture? i just hate how dudes assume becuz theyre interested, ure sposed to be interested. fuck off you loser. bitches. bitches say whatever they want to say whenever they want to say. imean its a free country, u shud b able to right? just be prepared when i have a sarcastic or bitchy response... females always want wat other females have. its just part of our nature.. but if u want smething another chic has, work harder bitch... go out there and do ya thing, dont 'hate' on the chic that is doin her thing. i hate to use the word 'hate' but females really be hating on others when it aint necessary. we are all in this together. we all got the same problems bitch whether u believe it or what. no one will ever know every little detail about me, what i do, who i do, and so on.. so dont assume 'i got it good' or i dont work hard for what i got, worry about what u need to do to get there.. smelly whore. lol. i hate looking for a job. i just wish jobs looked for me. i can do anything. i seriously can. so y is it so hard finding a GOOD PAYING job. i am so worth at least 60 but these mofos on the web (careerbuilder, monster) offering 30 k? wtf am i gonna do wit 30 k? it just frustrates me how much money i spent on college and i still am strugglin to pay my loans. and i refuse to dedicate all my income to loans.. its just not happening. anyways thats enuff of my bitchin for today.. have a happy 4th of july weekend cuz i know i will :-)