yo emotions fuckin suck. when i am about to get my period, i am an emotional wreck. its actually upsetting. i want to break down and cry about everything, im mad moody, every little thing i take personal, everything gets on my nerves, i want/need mad attention. i hate it in everyway possible. i wish there was something that cud cure emotional pmsing but shit dont work. i could say okay im goin to take control of my emotions but really they are controlling me. times like this i just need to stay home locked up with no access to anything. i be mad jealous of everything.

now this may sound stupid but im going to talk about it becuz this is my blog and i created it so that i cud talk about wat i wanted. so i feel some type of way when i see couples writing on eachothers wall and my boyfriend will never write anything on my wall. as stupid and petty as it sounds, it gets under my skin. i cant explain why it affects me, and at the end of the day it may not be that serious, but still.. something so SIMPLE is such a difficult task for certain people!

on another note, i cannot deal with people whove been working here for so long yet everytime they are asked to do an assignment, they act like today is their first day of employment and they dont know anything. my god...

only thing saving me from goin insane today is my ipod..

oh btw i hate when niggas say oh my life is so good now that im not with so and so.. this person makes me happy and there is no stress, DUH YOU FUCKIN IDIOT ITS becuz u just met her. who shows their true colors at the begininng? everyone with common sense knows dating and relationships always start off sweet and peaceful.. wait till she starts to get on ur nerves u idiot. NIGGAS are so dumb now a days... its like they all poured their common sense into a black hole one day

i just realized over the internet a lot of people pretend they are one way when they are really not. i guess the internet is everyones chance to be someone they have always wanted to be. i have 2 examples; 1 - the church girl who swears out shes in church everyday either praying, helping out the community, or just being an active church member.. and they claim they dont go out, listen to secular music, or engage n sexual activities with members of the opposite sex. BULLSHIT. dont you know half the time them are the main ones who are sleeping with multiple dudes. ive seen proof!!!! & im not even suprised. 2 - the person who claims they are so independent and got their own shit and dont need no nigga for nothing and niggas aint shit and all the stuff i got i bought on my own. BULLSHIT bitch. ill let you believe that. ive seen proof!! i need people to understand when you create a pretend life for yourself, be careful who you write msgs/emails to bc that shit is saved and they are showing other people! not to mention, if you gonna do your dirt, dont sleep at that niggas house! people see you idiot! it must be really embarassing to portray yourself as gods lil angel and then find yourself waking up in some dudes bed who wants u to go home so he can call his main chic... jeeze louise.

i am not perfect. i have made many mistakes. and i have learned from all of them. ive been in shitty situations that i have had to make the most out of. ive also learned from others mistakes as well. but in no way shape or form will you ever find me living a pretend life or coming off to people as one way when behind closed doors im a completely different person. nigga pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. im me, ill always be me, and nothing else but me. i am who i am and if you dont like me, stay away from me bitch!!!!!

i am sasha fierce

so i know this is pretty corny but i won beyonce's cd on 100.3 the beat..
ive never won anything in my life before so im ultra excited as if
i have won the lotto...

it brightened up my day.

so i drive to pearlevision to get my glasses adjusted and i hear them talkn bout call to get it now, so i call.. and like usual it is busy whenever i call a radio station so i hang up, try again, same thing..

hang up, try 1 more time... someone answers the phone like hey!
i'm like hey!

lol... and i won!!!
so i have to go pick it up in conshohocken at some point tomorrow because i already took my lunch break already today.. bummer

mind you the last REAL CD i bought was vivian green's which was some time ago, so this is a huge deal to me!

there is always so much ish i want to write about but i always forget when it is time to write... bummer...