I cant get rid of this awkwardness im feeling in my heart. How do u die at 26 yrs old??? Our bickering n stupid convos keep replaying n my head n i swear i still cant believe it. Very saddened by this but more than anything im extremely confused. I guess ive never lost anyone who didnt die of old age/health issues. I jus cant grasp this shit, forreal.

I gotta stop lookn at his pics on fb bc thats wats fuckn wit my head the most. I remember if i was flippn 5 mins late to work, hed always msg me on gchat n ask if i was comn n. N id flip out like dude, wat the fuck? Chris was the hypest yet funniest dude ive every worked with...

an old coworker of mine from PHA died in his sleep friday nite. i was extremely shocked when i heard the news, still am totally speechless. i worked very close with him in my almost 2 yrs at pha. he was only 26. for someone to die that young out of the blue, i really had to take 2 steps back and look at all i am blessed with. not that i dont appreciate everything i have as well as the people in my life but i dont think i say it enough to those people how greatful i am to have them in my life. this kid was hype 24/7, i used to joke on him and call him hype williams bc before i cud even sit down n my seat at work he was saying something to me and im like dude.. chill out. looking thru his pics on FB and even his wall and how he commented on a friends status at 11pm fri nite just makes the situation seem so unreal to me. he still has a status up from friday morning! i went to church yesterday just to kind of bring myself back to thanking the LORD, i got to laxed in the past 2 months with not going and i realize i really have no reason to not be in church EVERY sunday. i have way too much to be greatful for and way too much people for me to pray for, for me to be at home chillin on the couch.

its crazy bc in life u just always assume everyone u know is going to live till their old unless they have health problems. but when someone ure exact age just dies, it really opens ur eyes to the fact that really, tomorrow is never promised.

needless to say, RIP Chris.

i wish somebody would drop me a shit load of money. because i could sure use it right now.

5 lane highway and im all the way in the right while this nut with a red suv comes flying all the way from the left lane almost running me off the road. only thing to my right is a friggin cement wall. i somehow managed to avoid him and i feel like it was nothing but satan trying to get the best of me. thank God i know Jesus Christ :0)

im totally SPRUNG. how did this happen? must be the weather.