so this idiot decided he wanted to remove me from FB like i wudnt realize it. man whatever.. i think it is kind of immature but you know to each their own... i think he is bitter just like other ole boy i work with but u kno wat, i've washed my hands. i made the silly mistake of taking expired pain killers and they made me oh so sick. i had the worst headache and felt nauseus alllll day yesterday. it was the worst possible feeling. not to mention i had a personal training session that i couldnt cancel becuz it was past 24 hrs notice meaning i wud lose it.. chill son, cant be throwin $ out the window. so i go get a good work out in with dude and luckily it didnt make me feel worst.. a lil better actually but boy was i happy when it was over.
the weather just got cold as hell all of a sudden, & i hate it. there is nothing worst then cold weather. honestly. and given that my heat hasnt been working and ive had to use my lil heater, im miserable n the morning when it is time to take a shower and im freezing my ass off. hopefully it gets fixed today. goin to see my boo this weekend, happy to get away cuz weekends in philly i feel useless. i take these naps where when i wake up i feel weak or something then i just lay there for the remaining of the day. wasted weekend. & thankfully the weather is warmer there so ill be happy :)
im in desperate need of regular winter clothes along with work winter clothes. i wish there waslike a $1.99 sale somewhere. i have no money but these are things i really have to get. tired of looking like a bumb at work and when its time to go out i have to make a summer outfit work. its just not doin it anymore, otherwise ima just have to stay in the house for the remaining of the season.
i miss my mommy. gotta go see her
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
stupid boys & focus-ness
you ever wonder WHY certain people continue to contact you after youve showed numerous times that you dont want to be contacted?
exhibit a: this loser i used to talk to for a hot 30 days... i started ignoring his calls long time ago, so y does this fool continue to text me a year later talking bout, how come you dont be trying to hang out with me? when you gonna let me see your new spot? why you be acting like that? NIGGA.. i have not talked to you or hung out with you in like a year, why do you keep contacting me? im not hanging out with your simple psychotic ass.
exhibit b: the retard who removes you from his friends list on every social network available because hes just too hurt when he sees you have updated your profile, but yet he sends you msgs on myspace talkn bout watup? wat u think is up fool? dont try to be my friend if i wasnt worthy enough to remain on ur friends list. in fact, why are you searching for my page in the first place?
i'm starting to realize more and more how men are just dumb. like there is no other way to describe it. they are dumb. they dont think before they do things. they dont listen. and they act like bitches. i'm still sticking to that original quote - Boys are dumb, throw rocks at them.
So all of a sudden i just got mad focused; about personal finances, body, career... and so on. i was focused a whle back then i have slacked in the past month due to laziness and spending money on vacations all crazy. anyways i calculated my expenses and after i pay all my ish im sposed to have like 700 dollars left over, where is it??? used this calculator on cnn.com and it said someone my age, with my salary, should b saving 380 per month. Think i can do it? we'll see. ima try my hardest. im back n the gym hardcore again. its like i cud go like 3 weex hardcore then slip up for like 4 weex and reverse everything i did in the hardcore 3 weex. it sux. all i can say is ima try harder to stay consistent. ive been on a job hunt recently but not as hardcore as i should. im so frustrated with this place yet im not puttin in all the effort i should with finding a new gig. i just wish i was already rich and could stay at home. oh well, thats life i guess.
here come the idiots, let me get back to work.
exhibit a: this loser i used to talk to for a hot 30 days... i started ignoring his calls long time ago, so y does this fool continue to text me a year later talking bout, how come you dont be trying to hang out with me? when you gonna let me see your new spot? why you be acting like that? NIGGA.. i have not talked to you or hung out with you in like a year, why do you keep contacting me? im not hanging out with your simple psychotic ass.
exhibit b: the retard who removes you from his friends list on every social network available because hes just too hurt when he sees you have updated your profile, but yet he sends you msgs on myspace talkn bout watup? wat u think is up fool? dont try to be my friend if i wasnt worthy enough to remain on ur friends list. in fact, why are you searching for my page in the first place?
i'm starting to realize more and more how men are just dumb. like there is no other way to describe it. they are dumb. they dont think before they do things. they dont listen. and they act like bitches. i'm still sticking to that original quote - Boys are dumb, throw rocks at them.
So all of a sudden i just got mad focused; about personal finances, body, career... and so on. i was focused a whle back then i have slacked in the past month due to laziness and spending money on vacations all crazy. anyways i calculated my expenses and after i pay all my ish im sposed to have like 700 dollars left over, where is it??? used this calculator on cnn.com and it said someone my age, with my salary, should b saving 380 per month. Think i can do it? we'll see. ima try my hardest. im back n the gym hardcore again. its like i cud go like 3 weex hardcore then slip up for like 4 weex and reverse everything i did in the hardcore 3 weex. it sux. all i can say is ima try harder to stay consistent. ive been on a job hunt recently but not as hardcore as i should. im so frustrated with this place yet im not puttin in all the effort i should with finding a new gig. i just wish i was already rich and could stay at home. oh well, thats life i guess.
here come the idiots, let me get back to work.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
hi hater
Hater
By Maya Angelou
A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their
time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever
good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters...
That's why you have to be careful with whom you share your
blessings and your dreams, because some folk can't handle seeing
you blessed...
It's dangerous to be like somebody else... If God wanted you to be
like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they
have...
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they
don't know my story...
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you
can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We've all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb
(if he / she isn't about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being
in the home
Haters can't stand to see you happy.
Haters will never want to see you succeed.
Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be
on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?
You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are
*(VERY IMPORTANT!!)
2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not
mean having a job. You can have a job and still be
unfulfilled.
A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be.
Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.
3. By remembering what you have is by divine
prerogative and not human manipulation.
Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live...when its your
time to leave this earth, you 'want'to be able to say, 'I've lived my
life and fulfilled 'my'dreams,... Now I'm ready to go HOME!
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don't look at
me...Look at Who is in charge of me...'
Pass this to all of your family & friends who you know are
not hating on you including the person who sent it to you.
If you don't get it back, maybe you called somebody out!
Don't worry about it, it's not your problem, it's theirs..
Just pray for them, that their life can be as fulfilled as
yours! Watch out for Haters...BUT most of all don't become
a HATER!
'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man
should have to seek Him first to find her.'
Maya Angelou
By Maya Angelou
A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their
time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever
good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters...
That's why you have to be careful with whom you share your
blessings and your dreams, because some folk can't handle seeing
you blessed...
It's dangerous to be like somebody else... If God wanted you to be
like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they
have...
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they
don't know my story...
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you
can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We've all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb
(if he / she isn't about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being
in the home
Haters can't stand to see you happy.
Haters will never want to see you succeed.
Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be
on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?
You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are
*(VERY IMPORTANT!!)
2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not
mean having a job. You can have a job and still be
unfulfilled.
A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be.
Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.
3. By remembering what you have is by divine
prerogative and not human manipulation.
Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live...when its your
time to leave this earth, you 'want'to be able to say, 'I've lived my
life and fulfilled 'my'dreams,... Now I'm ready to go HOME!
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don't look at
me...Look at Who is in charge of me...'
Pass this to all of your family & friends who you know are
not hating on you including the person who sent it to you.
If you don't get it back, maybe you called somebody out!
Don't worry about it, it's not your problem, it's theirs..
Just pray for them, that their life can be as fulfilled as
yours! Watch out for Haters...BUT most of all don't become
a HATER!
'A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man
should have to seek Him first to find her.'
Maya Angelou
Thursday, October 16, 2008
reality
yo sometimes i think about shaving my whole head just so i cud see how big my head really is, how my scalp really looks, and how quick my hair wud grow back. but then i know ill look like a sickly fool. so i wont do it. anyways my glasses are irritating the shit outta my right ear and i dont wanna put my contacts on so i am sittn here no glasses or contacts wit my face mad close to the screen squinting. im prolly goin to be blind by the age of 30 cuz i cant see a GD thing. well i can see. just not things far away. damn shame, shudve ate those carrots huh. anyways, i keep wondering why i have to work. like seriously. why. why cant everything b free. so we dont need money. i mean everyone works for money. if we didnt need money, no one wud have to work. we cud just trade things. damnit. ill trade my dresser and bath towels for some food and clothes. thats sufficient right? ok i know i sound a lil nutty. but sometimes i wonder is this life? how long am i really goin to be doin this 9 to 5 thing. everyone has all these crzy dreams of doin foolish things that arent goin to happen. i just wnat to tell ppl sometimes, bitch stop playin urself, ure goin to be workin for the man at least for the next 30 yrs, so give it up. unless u marry an entertainer, sports player, or u win the lotto. people like you and me dont make millions boo boo. we def have the potential to make 6 figures but in this day and age sometimes that is just not enough.
this election stuff is getting scarier in my eyes. i have strong faith that obama is goin to win but i am worried when he gets n office what will happen. there are still a lot of ppl out there who strongly oppose a black leader, or black people in general. i just pray he stays safe. i feel like they may have set him up for failure tho given the state of the economy right now.
yo why do some people have to talk so much. stop talkking.
i be back at some point, maybe next week. i look like a weirdo wit my face so close to the screen... i need to do this type of stuff at home.
this election stuff is getting scarier in my eyes. i have strong faith that obama is goin to win but i am worried when he gets n office what will happen. there are still a lot of ppl out there who strongly oppose a black leader, or black people in general. i just pray he stays safe. i feel like they may have set him up for failure tho given the state of the economy right now.
yo why do some people have to talk so much. stop talkking.
i be back at some point, maybe next week. i look like a weirdo wit my face so close to the screen... i need to do this type of stuff at home.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
just some fyi's
-if someone CC's you on an email, it means that they want to keep you in the loop. the person's name in the To section is who is supposed to respond, not the person who was CCd.
-you cant possibly understand someone if you are talking while they are talking or preparing ur response in ur head while they are talking. hey lets practice active listening.
-logical thinking is a skill not everyone has. take a minute, listen.. pause.. think of the most logical response/decision. stop making decisions without thinking, you're ruining it for all of us
-would it be okay to flip a desk over????
-there is a difference between a parent and a co-worker. how bout you play my co-worker since i work with you & last time i checked you never gave birth to me.
-how about if i put together a presentation or report, you best believe my name is going on that shit.
-yo if working out on a certain machine makes u make a certain noise, you might want to consider goin to another machine, or taking some weights off. that noise is unacceptable and it disturbs us.
-there is no need for you to practice your acrobatic skills while working out. no need. lift weights, and go home. thats it. those flips in the air really scare me, you might hurt someone walking by.
-im changing my name to poiette obama after barack wins, and please believe cant nobody tell me shit once this mofo gets n office, cuz my black people, we are taking ova
-staying in your lane is not that difficult. thats why those white and yellow lines were placed on the ground. itd b nice if you just aimed to stay within them.
-fat people, stop buying milk duds and other fattening candy. eat some sunflower seeds if u need something to chew on. you are ruining the future.
i think thats all for tonight...
-you cant possibly understand someone if you are talking while they are talking or preparing ur response in ur head while they are talking. hey lets practice active listening.
-logical thinking is a skill not everyone has. take a minute, listen.. pause.. think of the most logical response/decision. stop making decisions without thinking, you're ruining it for all of us
-would it be okay to flip a desk over????
-there is a difference between a parent and a co-worker. how bout you play my co-worker since i work with you & last time i checked you never gave birth to me.
-how about if i put together a presentation or report, you best believe my name is going on that shit.
-yo if working out on a certain machine makes u make a certain noise, you might want to consider goin to another machine, or taking some weights off. that noise is unacceptable and it disturbs us.
-there is no need for you to practice your acrobatic skills while working out. no need. lift weights, and go home. thats it. those flips in the air really scare me, you might hurt someone walking by.
-im changing my name to poiette obama after barack wins, and please believe cant nobody tell me shit once this mofo gets n office, cuz my black people, we are taking ova
-staying in your lane is not that difficult. thats why those white and yellow lines were placed on the ground. itd b nice if you just aimed to stay within them.
-fat people, stop buying milk duds and other fattening candy. eat some sunflower seeds if u need something to chew on. you are ruining the future.
i think thats all for tonight...
Monday, October 6, 2008
catch up
hello there. ive been wanting to update, but ive been so lazy with regards to getting my thoughts together. so here they go....
first things first, the bahamas was great but too short. the weather was good despite what the forecasts had said & we had a lot of fun. the bahamas is very americanized which kind of sux becuz when i go to another place outside of the country, i like to get a feel for the culture, the food, the music, the people, etc... but please believe these people were exactly like us in every aspect. we did catch some local food at this local place, but honestly it wasnt much different from west indian food i tasted here n the US. oh well, no big deal.. i assume its because of the major tourism there. the resort was all inclusive so drinks and food wasnt a problem, except i probably gained like 5 lbs being there.
moving right along...coming back to work was a bummer. totally different weather, annoying ass people, and no beach!!! oh well thats life right? i need to get some fall/winter clothes for work. like big time. i ddidnt really have much to begin with but i refuse to freeze this season cuz im still wearing summer clothes. except who the hell wants to spend money on work clothes.
this weekend we celebrated mikala and jens bday. definitely good times. its weekends like those that keep me sane as far as having to live and work here. mikalas bday was different - a lil alcohol & some karaoke, which i never did before but it was fun. jens celebration was dinner at an expensive ass restaurant. if anyone knows me they know i hate spending money on food. i barely go grocery shopping. when i do, i buy the cheapest shit ever because food should not empty my bank acct. except this restaurant did. :-( so i am eating oatmeal, cereal, and oodles of noodles all week till i get paid on friday. i know, so sad, so sad.
watched sex & the city the movie again after jens dinner and it reminded me of how much i want to get married. like i dont really care for the idea of marriage, but i just want to be a bride, thats all. lol. the concept of marriage is really not that hot on my plate only because i dont think i will be doing anything different than i am doing now when i am married. im sure my relationship will remain the same, it will jsut b more permanent. & really at this point i feel like it is permanent already. however, this distance sux hot ass. but we make it work... & im happy about that.
anyways its monday morning & i guess i should be doing some work...
first things first, the bahamas was great but too short. the weather was good despite what the forecasts had said & we had a lot of fun. the bahamas is very americanized which kind of sux becuz when i go to another place outside of the country, i like to get a feel for the culture, the food, the music, the people, etc... but please believe these people were exactly like us in every aspect. we did catch some local food at this local place, but honestly it wasnt much different from west indian food i tasted here n the US. oh well, no big deal.. i assume its because of the major tourism there. the resort was all inclusive so drinks and food wasnt a problem, except i probably gained like 5 lbs being there.
moving right along...coming back to work was a bummer. totally different weather, annoying ass people, and no beach!!! oh well thats life right? i need to get some fall/winter clothes for work. like big time. i ddidnt really have much to begin with but i refuse to freeze this season cuz im still wearing summer clothes. except who the hell wants to spend money on work clothes.
this weekend we celebrated mikala and jens bday. definitely good times. its weekends like those that keep me sane as far as having to live and work here. mikalas bday was different - a lil alcohol & some karaoke, which i never did before but it was fun. jens celebration was dinner at an expensive ass restaurant. if anyone knows me they know i hate spending money on food. i barely go grocery shopping. when i do, i buy the cheapest shit ever because food should not empty my bank acct. except this restaurant did. :-( so i am eating oatmeal, cereal, and oodles of noodles all week till i get paid on friday. i know, so sad, so sad.
watched sex & the city the movie again after jens dinner and it reminded me of how much i want to get married. like i dont really care for the idea of marriage, but i just want to be a bride, thats all. lol. the concept of marriage is really not that hot on my plate only because i dont think i will be doing anything different than i am doing now when i am married. im sure my relationship will remain the same, it will jsut b more permanent. & really at this point i feel like it is permanent already. however, this distance sux hot ass. but we make it work... & im happy about that.
anyways its monday morning & i guess i should be doing some work...
Monday, September 22, 2008
3 more days!
life works n mysterious ways. please believe it. but lets just say what goes around ALWAYS comes around. & those who do fucked up shit to their friends, that shit comes back twice as hard. so now all i can do is giggle to myself, and i must say it feels damn good. i did a lot of thinking this weekend mainly because i had nothing else to do and because im starting to really see pplz tru colors lately. people i really thought i knew but apparently i dont. its funny when people are only friends with u when its convenient for them. right now all i can do is laugh. moving right along, my trip to the bahamas is 3 days away and i am so anxious i cud hardly sit still. i havent been on a real vacay since february and based on all the bs at work in the past month i can honestly say this shit is long overdue. come to find out lil wayne will be celebrating his bday there and having a concert friday nite so of course we got tickets and im super hyped about that as well. i saw rain n the forecast but lets hope if it does happen it is not all day.
its getting cold outside, and living in ghetto ass philadelphia, guess what happens? fucking mice start to come n. at first i thought it was 1, till last nite i saw 2 motherfuckers at the same time. & they bold as hell cuz they came out while i had the tv on and im walking around. gangsta. so i ran to the store and brought some shit. mind u these mofos been running around every nite makn mad noise. dont u kno neither one of them suckas came out last nite afta i put them snappy traps out. its like they already knew the deal. it sux to live in a place esp when there are other apts cuz it doesnt matter how clean urs is, u cud still have mice. so im guessing i am going to have to borrow someones cat..
anyways im out......
its getting cold outside, and living in ghetto ass philadelphia, guess what happens? fucking mice start to come n. at first i thought it was 1, till last nite i saw 2 motherfuckers at the same time. & they bold as hell cuz they came out while i had the tv on and im walking around. gangsta. so i ran to the store and brought some shit. mind u these mofos been running around every nite makn mad noise. dont u kno neither one of them suckas came out last nite afta i put them snappy traps out. its like they already knew the deal. it sux to live in a place esp when there are other apts cuz it doesnt matter how clean urs is, u cud still have mice. so im guessing i am going to have to borrow someones cat..
anyways im out......
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
youre not that important
i seriously hate how everyone thinks theyre mad important. ure really not. if someone does do somethin for u at the drop of a dime, or someone doesnt call u back, or someone doesnt come see u when they come to town, or someone doesnt give u a birthday present, or someone doesnt compliment your outfit, or someone just doesnt give you wat you want at the time you want, its not the end of the world... this world does operate with or without you. im sick and tired of people complaining that you didnt do this for me or say that to me or bla bla me, me me me me me.. give me a fucking break. first and foremost, my family gets first priority over everything so please believe if its something n which i gotta choose you first or my family, please believe its goin to be my family. secondly, i have more than 1 friend. i have plenty so just becuz i did not hang wit u this time around and hung wit someone else, does not mean ure not my friend, i just chose to spend time with someone else. its not that serious. if people didnt think they were so important, more people n this world would get along with eachother.
in addition to that, your situation is no worst than the next person. tired of hearing people saying they done been thru this and that... im sorry to hear that, i really am, in fact im happy ur experiences made u a better and stronger person, but i refuse to feel sorry for anyone. there are tons of people in other countries who are living in situations we couldnt possibly think of.. yet everyone thinks their situation is the worst. its really not. be thankful u breathing and have all ur body parts yo...
i just got a lil fed up lately cuz everyone is always talkn about themselves and the issues they have but they dont really talk about the bad issues that are surrounding us. in any case, this STUPID woman that has been training us for the past 3 days fucking blew my mind today. now i know there are ignorant people in this world.. you cant blame some of them because it is not their fault. however, some grown ass adults need to wake the fuck up before they past judgement on people without even knowin their situation. not to mention, i wuz not comfortable with the way she kept mentioning 'third world countries' its like any country that wasnt as developed as the US was 3rd world and thats not tru bitch. then she gon have nerve to talk about bribing cops with money when u go to foreign countries if u get a ticket. thats not something to brag about or tell people u dont even know. then she goes on to talk about how she went to indonesia and militia were shootin n the street and she had to pay this guy 500 US dollars to take her to the other side of the country safe from harm. first of all ass, unless ure in the military/army/whatever, ur stupid ass shudnt have been there, 2nd just becuz there is a war goin on or shootin, it is NOT A FUCKIN 3RD WORLD COUNTRY...
yo these clear skins (as mikala would say) be blowin me yo....
in addition to that, your situation is no worst than the next person. tired of hearing people saying they done been thru this and that... im sorry to hear that, i really am, in fact im happy ur experiences made u a better and stronger person, but i refuse to feel sorry for anyone. there are tons of people in other countries who are living in situations we couldnt possibly think of.. yet everyone thinks their situation is the worst. its really not. be thankful u breathing and have all ur body parts yo...
i just got a lil fed up lately cuz everyone is always talkn about themselves and the issues they have but they dont really talk about the bad issues that are surrounding us. in any case, this STUPID woman that has been training us for the past 3 days fucking blew my mind today. now i know there are ignorant people in this world.. you cant blame some of them because it is not their fault. however, some grown ass adults need to wake the fuck up before they past judgement on people without even knowin their situation. not to mention, i wuz not comfortable with the way she kept mentioning 'third world countries' its like any country that wasnt as developed as the US was 3rd world and thats not tru bitch. then she gon have nerve to talk about bribing cops with money when u go to foreign countries if u get a ticket. thats not something to brag about or tell people u dont even know. then she goes on to talk about how she went to indonesia and militia were shootin n the street and she had to pay this guy 500 US dollars to take her to the other side of the country safe from harm. first of all ass, unless ure in the military/army/whatever, ur stupid ass shudnt have been there, 2nd just becuz there is a war goin on or shootin, it is NOT A FUCKIN 3RD WORLD COUNTRY...
yo these clear skins (as mikala would say) be blowin me yo....
Friday, September 5, 2008
sept already??
so im goin thru everyones blogs lookin for updates to get me till lunch time cuz today is just one of those days when i dont want to do anything at work.. & i realize i havent updated in a while, so why dont i write something? anyways im glad it is friday. and as always, i never feel like doing work on fridays. i am happy the week has come to an end tho becuz ive been extremely tired all week and i finally caught up last nite. so this morning i felt woah refreshed lol. life has been... regular i guess. nothing new and exciting. counting down the days to me and kerns vacation, and continuing to work hard n the gym to shed this fat..
i saw that fool last weekend & silly me, i went to tx on a weekend where there wuz a major hurricane watch.. so there was all this nonsense going on & thus that fool was stressed & actin crazy as usual. but im used to that shit so watever.. he is comin n this weekend, hopefully it will b a good weekend otherwise u mite see me on the news lol.
yo im thinking about looking for a job in ny.. iunno its a thought, but i feel like i need something new, i need more money, and i need to b closer to my family.. who knows. 2009 is quickly approaching and i gotta start makin moves.. right now im entirely too comfortable in this situation that im n which is not really that great of an accomplishment considering all i paid for school.. f that.. so we will see.. but i just need to try something new.
but thats all for the updates now, hopefully i can have some drinks this weekend cuz boy do i need it...
i saw that fool last weekend & silly me, i went to tx on a weekend where there wuz a major hurricane watch.. so there was all this nonsense going on & thus that fool was stressed & actin crazy as usual. but im used to that shit so watever.. he is comin n this weekend, hopefully it will b a good weekend otherwise u mite see me on the news lol.
yo im thinking about looking for a job in ny.. iunno its a thought, but i feel like i need something new, i need more money, and i need to b closer to my family.. who knows. 2009 is quickly approaching and i gotta start makin moves.. right now im entirely too comfortable in this situation that im n which is not really that great of an accomplishment considering all i paid for school.. f that.. so we will see.. but i just need to try something new.
but thats all for the updates now, hopefully i can have some drinks this weekend cuz boy do i need it...
Saturday, August 16, 2008
man it feels great to be happy
guess what. i got 3 boyfriends now. lol just kidding. sometimes when im bored i create a pretend life full of drama like a soap opera in my head. i change my name, and create these sexy black men with all different personality traits. 1 who just got outta prison & does me so right.. he lets me hold his drug money & he has his packages sent to my apartment. 1 who is mr corporate america, he makes 7 figures & we go on trips to countries i never knew existed. like animapuco islands. (i made that up) & he laces me with diamond jewelry at least once a month. #3 is that wack nigga who u can boss around and tell wat to do. sometimes we need those to feel like we have some control over a man. he does watever i say and he drives me around. hey, it takes me to the next day at least. lol
okay so im officially moved in. everything is done & set up. i promised myself since i was actually stationary this weekend that i would do laundry, watch my lifetime, and buss some shots n the gym hardcore. and that is what i have accomplished on this great saturday. except the lady upstairs decided she wanted to hog the machine for a good 3 hrs so it threw my schedule of track. yo i finally got my sec deposit back and was able to pay off some bills. in a weird way, it kinda excites me to pay bills. lol dunno y, its like this bitter sweet relationship i have with my bills. i hate that they exist, but i love paying them. maybe next lifetime ill find some man dull enough to pay them for me.
i have a new found love for 'everything' bagels. its like a crazy addiction i cant shake. somebody save me, they are taking over my life & before u know it, i might eat 5 in 1 day :(
yo this guy at LA fitness today conned (sp?) me into signing up for a personal trainer. not even goin to tell u how much, cuz ull prolly wanna punch me. but i figure i need someone to push me at least until me & kerns trip in sept then ill just cancel the damn thing. needless to say i had a free session today & thought i was goin to faint at the end of it. it was to the point my legs were trembling hardcore for like 10 mins after the workout was done. anyways im competing wit kern to have this sexy ass stomach, so i can shut him the fuck up. once that is achieved, that nigga better bow down.
anyways, i must go drink liquor with my jamaican friends. tata pookie!
okay so im officially moved in. everything is done & set up. i promised myself since i was actually stationary this weekend that i would do laundry, watch my lifetime, and buss some shots n the gym hardcore. and that is what i have accomplished on this great saturday. except the lady upstairs decided she wanted to hog the machine for a good 3 hrs so it threw my schedule of track. yo i finally got my sec deposit back and was able to pay off some bills. in a weird way, it kinda excites me to pay bills. lol dunno y, its like this bitter sweet relationship i have with my bills. i hate that they exist, but i love paying them. maybe next lifetime ill find some man dull enough to pay them for me.
i have a new found love for 'everything' bagels. its like a crazy addiction i cant shake. somebody save me, they are taking over my life & before u know it, i might eat 5 in 1 day :(
yo this guy at LA fitness today conned (sp?) me into signing up for a personal trainer. not even goin to tell u how much, cuz ull prolly wanna punch me. but i figure i need someone to push me at least until me & kerns trip in sept then ill just cancel the damn thing. needless to say i had a free session today & thought i was goin to faint at the end of it. it was to the point my legs were trembling hardcore for like 10 mins after the workout was done. anyways im competing wit kern to have this sexy ass stomach, so i can shut him the fuck up. once that is achieved, that nigga better bow down.
anyways, i must go drink liquor with my jamaican friends. tata pookie!
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