yo some people are so stuck on themselves it is unbelieveable. i dont know why certain people feel that the world revolves around them and everything should be in their favor... YOU should do things for them... you should give them what you have.. bitch please. everybody got their own shit going on, worry about what you need to do to get the things you want. im so tired of people always looking for a handout... nigga youve gotten the same opportunities as me. how you dealt with them is your business not mine. too often i hear, well i was thinking you could.. well could you do this for me...bla bla.. dont get me wrong, i am always willing to help people out when i feel like they honestly need the help, but when i feel you can do shit on your own, then thats what you need to do. dont try to tell me what you was thinking i could do. actually, no you could do the same thing for yourself.

in any case.. i am excited for the holidays and this year coming to an end. every year its like im given a new chance to do better and make better decisions than i did the previous yr. i dont really have any BIG plans for 09 except that i just want a better job and perhaps get out of philly.. but i am being patient and doing what i can with what i have. i think God gave me this job to prepare me for the world we live in cuz Lord do these people make me want to blow somehting up EVERY SINGLE DAY. i assume tho once i move on, i will be able to deal with any type of person and any environment.. we will see i guess...

i finally got heat. alleluia. no more using the oven to heat up the house like a project chic :)