all over the place

today was 100 degrees.
i live in the east coast, up north for chrissake...
i have the worst cramps today.. its like ive had my period since i was 11 and 13 yrs later im still not used to this shit! jeeze every month is painful i just keep asking lord why lol.... i seriously be laying in the bed asking God to take my cramps away...

anyways ive been eating healthy lately.. whooo hooooo.
took a lil while cuz i was bangin fast food left and right for a few months
then i took control of my cravings and started buyin fresh produce.
i been goin hard for like 3 weex and so far so good..

boys are.... i dunno... i have a problem... i dunno wat it is. sometimes i want so much, then when i finally get it, im like.. damn, it aint all its cracked up to be. & i hate how dudes act like they affected by u talkn to someone else but yet they been doin them from the start. no guilt here buddy, in the words of rocko: you just do you.. umma do me.

as far as my love love.. i love him. but we still have so much to learn with eachother, its amazin how much time has passed and how much i have learned in general but theres still so much left. we're growing closer everyday and i used to think we were really close, as close as we could get.. but since all the bullshit in the past couple of months, i can say we've actually gotten closer than we were be4 the break up..

work.. ahhhhhh everyday i wonder why the fuck i paid so much to go to drexel when i cudve went to a way cheaper school and still b makn the same amt and doin the same thing. why lord....