i cant stand ghetto people...

THERE.

I said it... & lately i cant seem to escape them. with the 'always trying to start a fight, cussing in public, speaking improper english wherever they go, doing crazy shit to their children,' just being trifling in everyway possible.. IM OVER IT. i used to be able to ignore it but lately im bumping into it in everywhere.

1. i went to 2 cookouts this weekend. 1 of a co workers, 1 of a friend from college. the co-worker herself is not cool but the family members she had there.. WHEWWW... i could not wait to leave. from the cussing at the kids, to fat women with mustaches knockin me over and spittin ova my food, and the 90 degree weather... i was just like wtf. people started preparing to-go plates only 2 hrs afta the bbq had started. WTF! 2nd bbq, met up wit some dudes from drexel and it was cool. but lets jus say some family members of the dude havin the bbq were just rowdy for no reason. we went to lux at night and this chic cuirsed the parking attendant out so bad. FOR NO REASON. i mean i really felt sorry for dude, thats someones father. no matter how pissed i am at an adult, i would never cuirse one out. i might roll my eyes, suck my teeth.. but thats about it. theres a certain level of respect you should have for your elders NO MATTER WHAT. obviously parents arent teaching that anymore.

2. i went to get an annual physical today and it was cool except i had to get my bloodwork done elsewhere due to my insurance that sux dick.. anyways i go to this place.. and there are about 40 people in the wait room, i lie to you not. so im like wahtever, let me just get it over with. im aware its going to be a wait but oh well big deal.

Children - ghetto people tend to let their kids crawl all over the floor as if its not a public places and 100s of dirty nasty people dont walk on that floor. STOP IT. on top of that, kids are running around, screaming, running in the back, this one lady even had nerve to change her child on the counter where people sign in. WTF!!!!??? control ur kids!

Patience - ghetto people tend to have no patience. im aware of the wait but there is no need in complaining bc that shit is not going to speed up the process. so sit your ass down and shut the fuck up. i cant tell u how many people kept getting up and sayin to the clerk, 'well how much longer i gotts ta wait? well shit, whys it takin so damn long? i mean damn, can i make an appointment for another day?'. Really though?? your ass has nothing to do but go home and watch maury. so stop it. furthermore, the sucking teeth, clicking your SWV nails together, and rolling your eyes, is not necessary. its just not. like what exactly are you upset about? LOL i dont get it...

Names - ghetto people tend to have off the wall names. "Chiquita - Room 1"... did i just hear that right? yea i did.. Chiquita gets up with some long braids and swings them around her face and behind her back and proceeds in the back as if someone forced her dirty ass to be there. then she gonna have nerve to say "its about damn time!" next to Chiquita, i heard a Shawnteeka being called, and when i signed in i saw a Tomaya and Lernetta on the list... im not judging.. im jus sayin

thats all i have for now. but the nurse or lab chic or phlebotomist (sp) watever she was, poked the shit outta me, cudnt get any blood then poked the shit outta my other arm. she clearly didnt know what she was doing. now i look like i just came from dialysis. highly upset...

i hate telling people something then they take it and run with it. fall back son.

i realized im surrounded by a lot of annoying people on a daily basis. im trying my hardest to just ignore it. but sometimes i really do contemplate slapping people. although i speak violence, ive never actually acted out on it before. and i feel like i might be approaching that point sooner or later.

aside from that, life has been grande. grinding at work and living my life to the fullest everyday. dc is very exciting now that it has gotten warm. i have no trips planned for the summer but i would love to go to puerto rico be4 fall. i was hoping maybe someone could jus throw some money out the sky or something.... wishful thinking

i have an issue helping people who cant help themselves. i feel like if you cant work hard for what you want, why should i help you get what you want?

i have an issue with people who constantly pour out their problems to others every chance they get, but the minute you want to speak to them about something, they dont want to listen or could care less about what you have to say.. damn shame

i have an issue with people who are always worried about what other people are doing instead of worrying about themselves. what i do on a daily basis, with who or what, what i have, what im working on is MY BUSINESS. if i choose to share it with you or not, is MY BUSINESS. its not that hard...

its crazy bc i dont ask questions to people bc i dont give a fuck so i dont know why people ask me questions 24 fucking 7. its annoying as shit. stop it.

i am tired of being nice. it has been bought to my attention that i am people pleaser. i say yes to people when i want to say no. i feel bad hurting peoples feelings. i listen to peoples bullshit bc i dont want to make them worse than they already are. however, im fuckin tired. i want to be left alone sometimes. i dont feel like tellin u my business. ive worked hard for everything ive got, dont ever get that shit twisted. nothin was EVER given to me. furthermore, i got my own fuckin problems so i dont wanna hear yours every fuckin day. yes i have problems. everyone has problems. i jus dont share mine with every tom, dick, and harry. furthermore, your insecurities are your insecurities. i understand you have insecurities but keep that shit away from me. figure your shit out, niggas is too grown to be acting like 10 yr old abused kids. i feel sorry for kids but i cant feel sorry for grown ass adults. bc you realize ur problems and dont try to address them. i aint got time for that shit.

lawd have mercy, females can be so goddamn annoying at times, youd think i had children!

im ready to retire. that is all.

slow down

you ever have such a wild weekend that you cant differentiate what happened in your dreams vs what actually happened?! i remember so many things from the weekend but cant figure out what really happened and what just happened in my dreams fri and sat nite.

living on the edge all day everyday. but i dont even care anymore. why should i? im 26. life is woah exciting when you have not a care in the world. not to mention i am 100% free now so i dont have to actually feel bad about anything anymore. such a peaceful feeling.

all smiles

damned if i do, damned if i dont

"Dear women,
If you become a mother, we won't support you, cut your hours, and eventually fire you.
If you don't have children, we'll question that, blame your success on that, and assume you can work more because you have "no life".
How to win? Become a man. Everything you do is just wrong.
Kisses,
The Patriarchy"

This was comment on a blog about how sexism still exists in the workplace and basically how 49% of women who make ova 100K dont have children by the age of 40. i think that is kinda creepy. thats a HUGE amount of women. so does that mean if i have kids, i might not make it to 6 figures? or if i wanna make it to 6 figures, i better not have no damn kids? lol i mean i understand it, the amount of time women have to take off from work due to maternity leave can slow down your salary advancements.. in addition to that some women end up coming back to work with no real role. their position has been given to someone else. thats sad. so my recommendation, is for everyone to become a housewife. find u a rich man, marry him, and stay ur ass home. yeah!

LMAO.. im clearly joking

my morals have totally flown out the door as of recently.. its actually quite sad lol but ive had this i dont give a fuck, ima do what i want, when i want, how i want, and so on attitude for quite some time. ive always been the type of person to feel like if you hurt me, i will hurt you 50x harder.. in the ass.. i cant help it. i feel like im such a giving and loving person that for someone to hurt me, their just ruthless. so they deserve whatever they get. BUT... i kno that is not right. i am quite aware of right and wrong... so i guess im going to try to change that attitude?

ive been going to church on a regular basis for about 6 months now but ive only really used it as an opportunity to pray for my mother and not myself. maybe i need to do some deep soul searching. who knows. all i know is that someones gonna get fucked over soon lol

i got 19 days to shed some weight. i dont really have a goal, id jus like to drop a few.. ugh. so fruits and veggies for lunch and dinner everyday till then. maybe some cereal for breakfast. i gotta run hard everyday. the amt of weight i gained since trinidad is ridiculous. like i just totally lost myself. food is so good though lol.

i realized i have a lot of negativity in my life whether it be friends, family, situations, relationships, etc. im slowly working on ways to remove all of it. i have succeeded in removing 1 person out of my life completely bc of all the drama and bullshit revolving around this butthole. it felt good but lets hope i can keep it up bc the bastard has a way with words. we shall see...

i had a fun filled but too much driving type of weekend. fri spent it wit the ladies in jersey eating and drinking and talkin shit. great great times. saturday morn i headed home to spend some time wit my mommy and harass my sister. sat nite i had to go to CT to be with dude's fam for his bros graduation on sunday. very nice to be around GOOD friends and family. there is still uncessary drama tho, its like i cant escape it. and its draining.

besides that tho, life.is.good. no more work or mentoring so my evenings are completely free and i cant wait to bang out these workouts everyday.

opportunity is a knocking and i am jumping all over it, please believe. time waits for no one. wish me luck! :-P

ps - book club was this weekend and we discussed this book called Steven by Marvin Curtis Reed. Great read! The author even called in to discuss with us. After he got off the phone we talked about controlling relationships and it was such a coincidence bc i just posted on this recently. Sad to say, I know a few people involved in these terrible terrible situations and I guess all you can really do is pray for them because people have to be ready to do things on their own...

Praise the lord my relationship has never been controlling :)

Family will bring you downnnnnnn